Hello loves, how are you navigating these times?
My hope is that you stay encouraged and vigilant about living your life on your own terms now more than ever.
As I feel into the energy of this Black History Month and Body Awareness Month, I think about my own black body.
I’m in a black body so my body awareness comes at a major cost.
I was born in a body assigned female at birth, so my body consciousness comes at a cost.
I inhabit a fat body so my body awareness empathy and compassion for others comes at a cost.
And I still embody Art as Activism.
I get projected upon in every way that you can think of and receive really strong reactions from people I don’t even know. I have had to learn that these reactions say more about the people that have them than they do about me.
These are the things people see when they first meet me. I can’t turn it off, escape it or change it within 30 seconds, and I also don’t wish to. Over my lifetime, I have learned to be comfortable and feel free in my body at every stage of its existence.
My rebellious and revolutionary body is here to share what I know about loving my body in its fullness, living on purpose rather than by default, and feeling free even when the stakes are high. If I can do it in a body that most people secretly fear and many outwardly hate, I know that you can do it. I believe in you as I believe in me.
As a fat, black, queer girl living in a world that treats me indifferently at best and like a pariah at worst, I have had an uphill climb (like many who look like me) to embrace every part of myself from top to bottom and inside out.
I realize being conscious/mindful of all that is going on around me is a difficult road to choose. It is a rough and wild ride, and a challenging existence indeed. But for me and my life path, it is a necessary existence. I've already seen things that I cannot unsee, felt experiences that I cannot unfeel and more importantly, learned lessons that I am now grateful to have learned about myself and humanity.
To face trauma that lives in the mind, body and soul, to feel emotional and physical pain intensely, to access grief, to deepen self-intimacy and pleasure, is a multi-dimensional path and an Erotically embodied experience.
It is enlivening, ecstatic, generative, unpredictable, chaotic, engaging, beautiful, emotional, and orgasmic. You unlock all of the doors to freedom, not just the ones you want, but also the ones you need.
It’s all a part of being both human and spirit - being conscious, having choice, loving and living in our non-dualism, free from the binary, expansive and non-linear seeing the whole spectrum of our light.
What truths are you ready to see about yourself and your erotic body?
How do you want to live your erotic life?
What do I mean by Erotic? By Erotic, I mean your life force energy, the energy deep within you, that when tapped into consciously, ignites your ability to thrive and feel most alive!